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this entry is also abt how much i hate my sis. yes AGN. realli. i cudnt take it. she was screaming at me for all the seriously stupid things like even fullscap ppr. she sucks. i cant believe tt she has my blood. eww. i realli feel like pushing her down the 22nd storey so she juz dies. she said juz now wat '' u cry i dun care. u die also i dun care. u suck. ur pissing me off. wan a slap issit. u dun look at me like tt u understand. im asking u a simple question. '' n much more. hema was on the line with me. hema hated her ever since last year. i hated her ever since i was born. i realli dun care if she dies also. it makes me cry less. like juz now. i cudnt take it anymore. so i buried my head in the pillow- still on the fone with hema. i cud feel the pillow getting wet with my tears so i told her to call me back aft 10 min. she understood n put down the fone. i wen straight to the toilet. n i start crying even more. im like crying for 10 mins straight. i cry in the toilet cause im not a loud cryer. i cry extremely soft. theres instances wen i, my mum and my sis were sleeping on my mum's big bed n i was crying. no one knew ofcourse. i cry tt soft. but realli. i cant take her. she juz wans her life to happen her way- at home. she acts like a f****ing angel infront of her friends n all. but at home shes a devil. she shouts all the anger she has- at me. its bcause things juz dun happen her way. n she juz shouts. n sometimes wat she says can seriously hurt me. n if ur wondering y i dun tell this stuff to my mum or dad? even if they did care, they cant do anything. cause simply. she wun listen. she wud b saying ya ya ya to my dad but she never listens to wat he says. she juz toks back to my mum until my mum cant stand it n she shuts up. i juz hate her so much. n the worst part is wen my mum supports her. tt sucks like hell. my mum still thinks she cares abt me n the family. i think shes dumb. she dusnt care. mayb she used to. but definitely not any more. all she cares abt is her bf. but i dun like her bf cause hes never toked to me. tts mean. but its not like hes not nice. n mayb its mostly bcause my sis dusnt make it a point to introduce me to him. n even if she toks abt me. he dusnt care. so they do match. haiz. i juz wanna kill her. i cant b happy with her. n tts y i hate coming home itself. ppl like coming home- unlike me. i wish i cud stay away frm home until she sleeps. den i shuld come back. so she wun hit me or threaten me or shout at me or simply. not mentally break me down. hiya. i dun wanna tok abt her anymore. she juz sucks.
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