7:20 AM
okays. abt today. wen to both my grandmums place. saw my cousins n played badminton agn as usual. was abit quiet at ayya's place. dunno y. juz din c the need to tok alot. everyone was like ashwini y r u so quiet. wats wrong. n i was like no nth nth. gawd. came back home n im using the com now. mum's gonna go to bangkok. sheesh. i thought it wud onli b my dad doing these kinda stuff. i dunno whether to feel upset or normal. wen my dad goes overseas its kinda normal. cause im so used to it. but without my mum..im gonna suffer. i dun hav ANYONE to tell my stories to. its gonna b very hard. shes coming back on thurs. den at some time, shes going to iraq? something like tt. shes coming back on the eve of deepavali. wow. so much for deepavali spirit. n my dad last year wasnt even here for deepavali. aahh. i told my mum this: first it was appa n now its u. i cudnt help saying tt. i mean i felt hurt n upset n shocked all at the same time. n the onli excuse they keep on repeating is: i cant say no to my boss or i will b fired. i was like: if i were u i'd rather b fired. n nowdays. i dunno how my mum stays so nice to my dad even if hes so mean. i wonder if he will even send her off tmrw. i was like thinking y r we not going to the airport. the onli reason i cud come up with was appa. my dad. n i dun get it cause whenever my dad leaves my mum wud really bring us with him n force to send him off in the car. but for her, its diff. annoying much. haiz. whatever la. im over trying t understand parent/adult psychology. anyways. tts all for now.
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