1:09 AM
woakays. i feel like sucha BAD girl. seriously. i gotta stopit. syf is coming up. exams r coming. n i dun seem to b bothered by it. i need to study. i need to go for dance. i WILL study. i WILL go for dance. [self-motivation helps =)] i sound abit crazy but i cant help thinking like tt. u noe wen i do something i feel SO GUILTY. its a bad habit. realli it is. now im feeling terrible abt myself. i hate disappointing my parents- especially my mum. she expects so much of me..i dunno wat else to say. she depends on me alot..but i dunno hu to depend on. ofcourse my friends r always there for me, but this is diff. i hav to change back to my old self. the one tt does things properly. actually, all i mean is to b more responsible. its something im never able to grasp. i hope me n my mum can go for tt korean movie later tonite. wud luv tt. need a gd long cry n tt wud b a perfect opportunity to do so- wat do u expect? me my mum n sis cried watching the trailer itself. its abt this dog n the owners r these two kids..sad muchh. anyways. i realli need to find a way to cheer up.
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