6:51 PM
boos. the past few days: all tts been on my mind is dance. dance dance dance. cause syf is this monday. my god im f-ing scared. n guess wat? im sick. it all started with a flu- which is quite ok cause it seems like i always hav a flu. den there was a bit of sorethroat. on monday, i had 5 items [PE-NAPFA] n i was seriously so stupid cause i did all of it- which ofcourse made things worse. the whole day my throat was so fcuking pain. den in the evening i had dance. we din dance much but still. it made things a whole lot worse. so wen i came home, it was like hell. my throat was seriously killing me. i told my mum- she brought me to the doctor. she took the no. for me n came home first. den we left at abt 8.45 n wen we reached, the nex no. was ours. right timing =). the doc said nth much for my throat, its juz the phlem. he gave me a few tablets to take- for flu n for phlem n stuff. overnight, it got worse. i din sleep the whole night. i coughed n coughed until my whole throat was sore. a few times i got up n drank the warm water nex to me. sometimes i got up to go toilet. n wen i came back to my bed, i slept in a weird random sort of way- n i cud sleep. i cant sleep hugging my bolster n straight. like my leg wud b on one corner of the bed n my hand wud b the other corner. i din wanna go to sch. my cough was juz too bad. mum took half day leave n brought me to the doc to get mc n stuff. we had to wait 2 fcuking long hours b4 our no. was called out. rawwrs. i slept on my mum- on her lap, shoulder. i felt like a small girl. wen i woke up suddenly, i cud hear my mum toking on the fone- most probably to shakthi aunty. she was toking abt my dad. heard stuff i really din wanna hear, even tho i knew abt the whole thing way b4 even my mum found out. anyways, the doc gave me two days mc- as in for today as well. yest i slept alot. took my medicine. watched 1st disc of deepavali [movie] with mum. im feeling a bit better [touch wood] but u noe, i still hav phlem n everything. today morning wen i woke up, my tummy was so flat, i cud feel every single bone. it was freaky man. fever started last night. its typical of me man. wen like important days come, i hav some sort of sickness. im missing my dance practices. n im scared for syf nex mon. cause the doc had told me to not take PE nex mon- but i hav syf. i cant miss it! pls god help me. its this thing ive always had- mild bronchitis. something abit like asthma but not really. today im home alone, me n aunty n manju. i hate being sick. n sadly, im missing sch cause i miss my friends. im missing so much of laughter. n im missing lots of lessons. this friday also missing lessons. nex monday also missing lessons. well, tts me, ashwini. always falling sick- cause im so weak. yest while bathing, i was shaking so i had to sit down. it's tt bad. yea. hope i get better realli. dance is juz a few days away.
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